For those of us who have any type of anxiety disorder, there will always be good days along with some darker days. There are days we can manage it, function properly, and stay on top of it, but there are also days when it can completely take over our minds, our emotions, and our entire well-being. For anyone who wants to argue otherwise, anxiety is real, and it doesn't just mean that you tend to worry about things or get stressed easily. Anxiety disorders have real, physical, and mental symptoms that make daily life difficult. On a day where anxiety is at an all-time high, this is what it can truly feel like:
It's like your world is spinning out of control and no matter what you do, you can't stop it.
No matter what anyone says in that moment, it doesn't make it go away, no matter how bad you want it to.
You're completely lost in your thoughts.
You cannot explain these feelings or what you're exactly worrying about because it's so many things (both big and small, real and nonexistent) all at once.
You have feelings of dread wash over you.
You have a pit in your stomach.
Your chest feels really tight, like you can hardly breathe or it's difficult to catch your breath. You tend to continually take deep, short breaths.
It seems like these feelings will never go away, even though somewhere in the non-anxious part of your brain, you know they will.
It feels like you're stuck in a dark tunnel, trapped, unable to stop worrying.
You begin to ruminate, or extremely over-analyze things and replay dark thoughts in your head, and this is a vicious cycle.
You're extremely touchy and almost anything can set you off or make you feel upset.
Your head feels foggy and it's becomes difficult to concentrate or focus on anything.
It feels like there is no way out of your own head.
It's almost impossible to see past the anxiety.
It feels like you're falling apart, and you don't know how to put the pieces back together.
It feels like you're drowning.
If you or someone you love is suffering from anxiety, please try and find healthy ways to feel better. And never, ever, be afraid to seek the help you need - it'll only make those darker days less frequent and more bearable. Stay strong. Deep breaths. One day at a time. You will be okay.